life
Wednesday, July 08, 2009
love, loss and something new
so much has changed since my last post. I thought about what I should name this post, since i'm not sure how much I can recap all that has happened since last may. If I had time to go back and have subject lines for all the posts that should have happened, they would be this:
good to go: this is about brian learning about women's menstual cycles on the interweb and plugging in "good to go" dates on his iphone calendar. kinda of sweet, much more scary. he's doing the math (started counting with June 8).
beginning and endings: so much could go under this posting header. cousin steve and cousin gary both graduated, mumford's retirement party, dudley and brian's birthdays all fall under this category. ton of celebration + ton of change = ton to the tonth power of fodder for me to chew on. not sure if I'm ever going to double dip back into any of these topics, but I'm really lucky to be part of the fong family.
relationshit: it's been very difficult for me to come to terms with the current demise of a couples' relationship. they have been such a part of my adulthood that this break up has really created a hollow space in my heart that they used to fill together. I hope I can fill the space with their individual parts.
man in the mirror: went home and dad took us to the grammy museum over july 4th. the few tears I shed watching mj montages at the museum was nothing compared do outpouring of sadness I felt watching the memorial on my laptop last night in the dark. I rarely do facebook postings, but I was really so moved by the music and the sentiments that were shared. I couldn't breathe when usher sang his tribute.
didn't think I would be so emotional with MJ's memorial. Half a box of tissues later I realize it's because part of my childhood passed away with him.
Gone too soon.
something new on July 7th:
